cereal and milk.
Okay, so I definitely lied. I for sure did not have time to update last weekend, and for that, I am sorry. I literally have not had time to breathe. I have to go back to camp soon, so this will be rushed. But I'll try to cover the main parts:
Stressful.
But seriously, this past week and half could possibly be the hardest I have had in a very long time. Don't get me wrong, I love camp, but okay. We have been working to plan night events, activities, budget stuff and counselor stuff. Basically, they gave all of us lists and said, "Go get to know these counselors so that we know what Sky to put them in." That part was stressful for me because I am terrible at remembering names and am so awkward at jumping into conversation with people I don't know. Luckily, that's all finished now, and I am so excited to really get to know all my counselors in Sky 2.
Insufficient.
To be honest, I feel completely inadequate for this job. Everyone else on leadership is so good at it, and I feel like I'm not at all. Which is hard. But I think that's okay, because I think that is a good place to be. Because I KNOW that the Lord will use that and that He will work through that. And I KNOW that I belong here, because I wouldn't be here if He didn't have it planned from the beginning. But it's still hard. More on this later, probably.
Single.
Something I struggle with CONSTANTLY, at camp or not at camp. But I feel like this summer will be especially hard, because literally everyone on leadership that I work with (except maybe 2 other people) is either dating, engaged to, or married to someone else on leadership or someone else that works at camp. Can we please talk about how hard it is to be surrounded by this everyday? I KNOW it's not a big deal in the scheme of things, and I KNOW that my worth is not found in that, but still. It is hard to be reminded constantly that I don't have that. Something I will have to surrender daily, I suppose.
CHANGE.
How weird it has been to be yanked out of the environment where I am surrounded by Singers and jokes and that love, and immersed in the camp environment that is completely without Singers and completely different. Not bad, just very very different. I did okay the first week, but this week has been a struggle. I miss Glee parties and movie nights and hanging out at chamanddeans. I haven't even had the chance to talk to anyone but Alysse in the past two weeks, and I'm feeling it. It will be good for me to do something else for a while, but I miss my loves.
In short, this is hard. And I'm struggling. But it's okay because His grace is sufficient for all of my weakness and He will cover it. I will cling to that each day and press on. Lord, give me faith to never look away.
Time to bounce, hopefully more updates this weekend, but I can't promise.
Please send mail, I would probably cry tears of joy if you did.
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