"I can't wait for you to be done camp and come home because things are getting ridiculous."
Currently: I miss Singers like CRAZY. I cannot wait to get back to Austin in a few days and see everyone (everyone that is there, at least). I love and miss my roommate more than I realize sometimes and am so pumped to get back to 1511, watching musicals at 11:30 at night, hip-hop abs and baking.
I miss others too, but will have to wait much longer to see them. This I am NOT happy about. (aka, Mike, Cale-- STINKIN' COME BACK TO TEXAS because I'm over you both being gone. kthanks.)
As I have said before, more on my transition from camp to "the real world" later.
A small update on the week:
I was texting Cale this morning and told him, "...if I told you all that has happened this week so far, you probably wouldn't even believe me." And it's only WEDNESDAY. This week has been so crazy, but also way cool and an awesome time to learn and grow. BUT, due to time and my need to go to Wal-Mart and Sonic (DUH) and Chillis (chips and salsa, yo) before I go back to camp, I will tell you all about it later. Don't worry, I have written down all the details so that I can inform you of the week it felt like the world was ending in Cabin 18 and Sky Ranch. This weekend for sure.
Here is a teaser for you: Yesterday when I was updating, I fully intended to write more and elaborate. While typing my last sentence, Clinton Pfalser runs in the staff lounge, plops down beside me on the couch and says, while trying to catch his breath, "One of your girls is hurt. I don't know details, but get to the blob as soon as you can." This is why my last post ended so abruptly. Another teaser: my camper leaves camp in an ambulence. Kaity goes with her, leaving me as the only counselor for my cabin.
I feel like this week is a crash corse in leadership/everything I was supposed to learn while at camp but haven't yet. Everything that could go wrong has, and we have had to deal with it- as a cabin, as counselors, and me as the senior. New challenges every time we manage to get one under control.
But honestly, I love it. This is one of my favorite weeks. The Lord is showing me so much about who He is and how much I need Him. About how much I honestly can't do this on my own and how strong He is and that He is in control. Especially yesterday.
Hopefully I will organize my thoughts and all of my awe in what is happening this week (both in my cabin with my girls and in my heart) enough to tell you about it adequately this weekend when I have time to update. I seriously can't even process everything that He is doing this week and showing me. But I love it and am honestly in awe.
I will stand on Your truth and fight with YOUR STRENGTH.
"Remember that day you were praying about Singers and seniors leaving.
And you prayed about strenght. I said,
"Only I am strong."
--yes of course.
"And this whole time you have been thinking on that and what it really means..."
-- yeah-- I know YOU are strong. but lots of people are strong.
and I know that you give me strength, but... I don't get it...
"but today, you needed MY strength.
And you asked for it, and I provided for you and took care of you.
Nobody's strength in the whole entire world would have gotten you through today.
People are strong. In all those ways you have been thinking about.
But ultimately, it is MY strength that you need.
People can be strong for you and build you up and support you
and all those things you prayed about.
But in the end, at the end of the day,
ONLY I AM STRONG."
And you prayed about strenght. I said,
"Only I am strong."
--yes of course.
"And this whole time you have been thinking on that and what it really means..."
-- yeah-- I know YOU are strong. but lots of people are strong.
and I know that you give me strength, but... I don't get it...
"but today, you needed MY strength.
And you asked for it, and I provided for you and took care of you.
Nobody's strength in the whole entire world would have gotten you through today.
People are strong. In all those ways you have been thinking about.
But ultimately, it is MY strength that you need.
People can be strong for you and build you up and support you
and all those things you prayed about.
But in the end, at the end of the day,
ONLY I AM STRONG."
...I think I am still wrestling with this and what that truly means. Because I get it, but I don't know if I really GET IT. More on this later...
SONIC. :) (they are closing the coffee shop and turning out the lights so I should probably bounce.)
SONIC. :) (they are closing the coffee shop and turning out the lights so I should probably bounce.)
